爱我别走

爱我别走词曲:张震岳
我到了这个时候还是一样
夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
我不敢想的太多
因为我一个人
迎面而来的月光拉长身影
漫无目的地走在冷冷的街
我没有你的消息
因为我在想你
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔
我到了这个时候还是一样
夜里的寂寞容易叫人悲伤
我不敢想的太多
因为我一个人
迎面而来的月光拉长身影
漫无目的地走在冷冷的街
我没有你的消息
因为我在想你
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔
(music)
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔
爱我别走
如果你说你不爱我
不要听见你真的说出口
再给我一点温柔

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Another oldies, Its really nice… Picking up and trying to sing it well

Was once again remindered that i should move on… Those ‘words’ were rather striaght forward…

Making me like a total loser…

There are many more things in life for me to worry about and look forward to….

Just give me more time… don’t ask me how long… it wasn’t as simple as it seems…..

I love others more than myself… this is my weakness…. It will always be…..

I promise i will not let anyone of you down…. I promise…

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Recently, i met a new group of friends….

They are really nice and simple people, who are really heartwarming….

Sometimes, life is not as complicated as it seems, though there bound to be unhappy times but one will get back and everything will be fine again…..

For the past two services i learnt alot….

I need to be a visonary, i need to take the lead….

No matter how difficult it takes, as long as i have the determination and faith, i will accomplish wonders….

Be a real responsible man….

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To be honest, i am very busy…. but somehow i managed to find some time to type….

I’m not slacking..

I’m working hard… but am i working smart?

I giving all my best now… I’m working towards my goal..

Though there are many burdens behind my mind… but I’m trying my best….

I’m stress that i cannot meet my bosses expectation…

They might think too highly of me….

Am i going to give up now?

NO WAY!

Be it good or bad the outcome is…. I did tried… Right?

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A friend of mine asked: “How do you measure love?”

I’m still thinking for an answer….

Maybe any kind soul out there could provide me with the answer?

Have a great evening people! Need to rush my work again!

 

Pray is all i can do now….

Been praying….

The only comfort i get…..

Is to know that you are healthy, happy and safe…..

There’s isn’t much i can do as time is running out…..

No matter what happens…..

I be always around….

Always there….

Quietly…. I pray… for you…

Good nite…

Limitation….

Its 7:10pm and i am still in the office….

Need to see my boss inawhile to clear some urgent taskings….

Nowadays, when i’m feeling down, the only way to console myself is to write it out on this space of mine……

We are humans with fresh and blood afterall….

I’m always there no matter how tough life is…..

I’m always there no matter how hard it gets…..

I’m always there when support is needed…..

I’m always there when you needed me…..

We both knew we care…..

The sad fact is humans make mistakes….

Chances were given and resulted in disappointments….

I never take anyone or anything for granted…..

Its just that maybe i’m not sensitive enough….. 

Humans react differently….

I have my limitation as well…..

There are soo much i want to do and soo little i can accomplish…..

This is my limitation…..

When a guy and a girl meet and fall in love….

They both started with high hopes that things would turn out well…..

As time passed… Unknowingly things turn out different…

“I want her to be happy and to give her the best, but… what i did was not what she wanted”

in other words….

“What i feel is good for her, not neccessary she will feel the same way”

Many times, i’m just not good enough for anyone….

I lost my chances…..

I reached my limit……

A close friend told me you are doing great and is happy now….

Am really glad to hear this… I have my peace… God bless…

You are strong, just need to put your heart to it and you will accomplish wonders…

Good night everyone, will have to work over the weekends….

 

 

I’m happy for you….

I called her yesterday and today….

I’m glad she returned my call yesterday….

Our conversation was simple….. Just checking how eachother are lately… The feeling was great…

But good things don’t last, line was cut off during the midst of our conversation as she was on the train and the reception was bad….

So that was how our 2 min plus conversation ended….

Today, again i called her in the evening…

A guy picked up….. I was stumbled for a moment…

Politely i said i will call back later and i hanged up…..

But i know i will not call her again……

Though the feeling is really cold and sad for me….. but hey, she has moved on.. I should be happy for her..

I should not have called…. no matter how much i miss her… I should have leave her alone..

The guy who answered just now gave me a instant wake up call…. that i have to move on…

Happiness comes to those who seek to find it…

She has done it……

Though i’m sad, but deep in my heart, I’m happy for you….

I sincerely hope he is the right one for you….

To be honest, yes i still love you.. but i want you to be happy….

Apologised that i’m unable to provide the promises i made to you….

I do pray that he is able to cherish and love you and vice versa..

I can’t ask for much more but to wish you all the best and ever……

I want you to be happy… You deserve to be…..

The only comfort i can get from you now is to see you happy….

Good Night everyone.

Maybe this is what she felt then and maybe now…..

Take a Bow

Hoo…

How ’bout a round of applause
Yeah…
Standing ovation
Oohhhh… yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah…

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You’re so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

[Chorus]
Don’t tell me you’re sorry cause you’re not
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talkin’ about, girl, I love you, you’re the one
This just looks like the re-run
Please, what else is on

[Chorus]

And don’t tell me you’re sorry cause you lied
Baby when I know you’re only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now
Go on and take a bow

And the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be
Faithful to me
Lets hear your speech ohh

How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

[Chorus]
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it’s time to go
Curtain’s finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it’s over now
Go on and take a bow

But it’s over now

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Maybe the song above perfectly described the way she felt then……

To look back… guess i was too emotionally involved…

The feeling remains…. It was all my fault…

Moulding her to be someone she do not want to be……

What i felt was good for her did not turned out to be what she really wants……

I have only myself to blame…. Am not sensitive enough when she created numerous signs to hint me…..

If there is ever another chance, if only…….

Coming to 3 months…. My feel for her…. you should have guess it…

Lately, i been “trapped” with works… Working late almost every night…

Though it may help in keeping me occupied, but… my mind just cannot forget about her…..

The feeling is really uneasy for me….

If you are reading this, please do not feel disgusted…. I know i’m silly to be like this… Give me more time…. I will try to be like you…. to move on…

I’m sorry…

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Saturday… Yes, left JK at Del Mar instead went to Church with Buddy V…..

Its not the first time i been to the church…

I was from a methodist school then….

The service was really good, memories flashed back in my mind…

For once, i can feel that i’m able to calm myself and open my heart….. To listen, to feel and to sing….

I’m relieved… 

The feeling brought me back to the good old secondary school days…..

When i’m still young and carefree, no worries and just plain simple….

All i can say, God given me a chance and brought someone into my life then…

Many years later, i failed myself and turned away….

It was cruel… but now i feel it as well…..

Thanks buddy V… Don’t ask why…

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I’m tired… its 6pm..

Have a great evening people.. 

擦肩而過

Friday, one word to describe… “Packed”

Police summon issue was settled in the morning…

Started work at 8am, ended at 930pm…. Hardly able to sit down and have a proper meal the whole day…

Rushed to orchard to get gift for Bday girl… One word to say.. “Sorry, am really last minute”

Reached Le Bar at 1030pm, wished Bday girl, gave the gift and rushed off again…

Rushed off to explanade, picked up my friend and headed down Plasma at 1100pm to meet my buddy, JK….

Then after awhile, all of us headed down to Hush Hush at 1200am and finally settled at there with excessive Martel… haha

And guess what, met up not 1 but 2 of my ex colleauges from camp.. haha..

A night of friends gathering.. haha (Wasn’t plan to be like this, but nevertheless it was fun la…)

Smoke and drink and smoke and drink…. haha… its really unhealthy man.. but WTH…haha

I somehow becoming a ‘weekend’ smoker.. (Though i still dun like the smell of it.. haha)

The night ended up with supper at Lao Pa Sa with my friend, who was craving for Fried Oyster….. soo no choice la.. haha

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Why the above song?

Lately i been singing this song and i’m getting better and better.. haha

Remember she like this song and said i’m able to sing it well….

Am still trying…. 

Think of her again… but what can i do?

Theres nothing i can do… Its hard to forget about her….

Please be happy… atleast that is the only comfort i will get from you….

Good Morning guys! But i sleeping now… Sorry JK, afraid i have to skip your Del Mar le…

Meeting Buddy V to a holy place… haha.. Just want to see whether i’m able to get some relief for my soul…

Byez…  

 

2am again…..

Its been a very long day…..

Was at work early and whole day was really hectic…

Back to back activities….

I’m sleepy now… i mean i’m really tired…

Thursday pool competition…

Dejavu effect… We went ahead 3-0 against the best team in our group..

But in the end we were drew 3-3……. -_-

What a waste….

Was at top form and managed to beat the captain for the team..

Was a tight game 7-6……

Better luck next time, TEAM ICEZ comon!!!

Tomorrow is really packed….

Morning i have to go to the police station, crossed my fingers….

Afterthat i have to rush back to work… Rehearsals to handle.. and its going to end pretty late…

Evening or night time have to rush to a friend’s birthday…..

One year older for her…

I really hope everyday i’ll be packed with activities….

I want my own space to do my own things now..

Its time for me to stop the earth spinning and take a good look of what i have missed…

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I do hope she could reply the sms i sent to her last night…

Are you really happy now?

As much i can say…. i am not….

Good night everyone.

Change our minds, we don’t need a finish line…..

Let’s Start From Here

Giving up, why should I
we’ve come to far to forget
we’re beautiful, we just got lost
somewhere along the way
so much was missing when you went away

Let’s start from here, lose the past
change our minds, we don’t need a finish line
let’s take this chance not think too deep
of all those promises we couldn’t seem to keep
I don’t care where we go
Let’s start from here

standing here face to face
a finger on your lips
don’t say a word don’t make a sound
silence surrounds us now
even when you were gone I felt you everywhere

Let’s start from here, lose the past
change our minds, we don’t need a finish line
let’s take this chance not think too deep
of all those promises we couldn’t seem to keep
I don’t care where we go
Let’s start from here
Let’s start from here

I’ve never been the one to open up
but you’ve always been the voive within
the only warmth from my cold heart

Let’s start from here, lose the past
change our minds, we don’t need a finish line
let’s take this chance not think too deep
of all those promises
Let’s start from here, lose the past
change our minds
we don’t need a finish line
let’s take this chance not think too deep
of all those promises we couldn’t seem to keep
I don’t care where we go
Let’s start from here
Let’s start from here
Let’s start from here
Let’s start from here

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Another song from Joanna Wang…..

The lyrics are meaningful….

I want to move on…. to be better and not the worst….

I want to be alone…. I’m sorry….

Life has changed drastically for the past two months plus….

I still cannot make her to be my past….

I still care till this very moment….

Though i can no longer be by her side, but i do wish and pray that she is happy and fine….

Its my decision… i will answer for it…

Maybe as what it said, ‘we don’t need a finish line’….

Right now, i just want to be alone and there isn’t anything for me to look forward to….

I will study hard and try to focus on my work….

Work has been pilling up… I’m afraid of not meeting the expectation…

I’m still unable to focus fully….

My life has changed, i have changed…..

For the people around me, I’m sorry….

I’m sorry that i cannot give an ‘answer’……

As i said… i no longer myself… ever…

Less of everything… no more 100% for anything…

My days are filled with nothing… I’m nothing…

Have a great evening….

She is a good singer…..

I Love You

Familiar with the song?

Yes, it was a song sang by 陶吉吉

Absolutely brilliant!

Was at Paragon yesterday evening.. went to a CD with no intention of getting anything…

Guess what, the singer Joanna Wang caught my eyes…

I love songs from Olivia…

Joanna Wang’s songs are somehow similar or close to it…

Without hesitation i got the CD…

And this song is my all time favourite…. I love it!!

Been doing things alone lately, exclude the many drinking sessions with my buddies…

Its not that bad afterall to be you and just yourself only…

I have to keep myself occupied…

I have to admit, met up alot of friends lately…

Maybe… I need a very long time to recover fully….

I do not want the people around me to get hurt…

If i did, please forgive me….

I’m just being ‘myself’ now…

Just like a tattoo, I’ll always have you

Tattoo

Oh, oh, oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I’ll get what I’m asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I’m wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

[Chorus]
I can’t waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing’s broken
No need to worry about everything I’ve done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don’t look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You’re still apart of everything I do
You’re on my heart just like a tattoo

(Just like a tattoo, I’ll always have you
I’ll always have you, I’ll always have you)

I’m sick of playing all of these games
It’s not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn’t deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I’m wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

[Chorus]

(Just like a tattoo, I’ll always have you
I’ll always have you)

[Bridge]
If I live every moment
Won’t change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything I do

[Chorus X2]

Just like a tattoo
I’ll always have you…

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Its been 2 months and i’m still finding my soul…..

Am given all the space and time to find back lost memories….

I thought i have get over it and carry on with my life…..

Right now, nobody truely knows about me…. Even myself could not explain my behaviour, actions and feelings……….

I do not know how long more i need to get back myself again….

I could no longer love or feel….

I’m selfish now…

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Went intoxication again last night…

Met up with my childhood buddy from primary school….

Nearing 3 x bottles of Martel being shared among us….

Yes, it was madness…. Hopping from one place to another….

A very busy night… (Friends reunion session)

Overdosed of alcohol only result in one thing….

Hangover…

Worst i have to wake up early and compete in my pool competition..

Took pills to heal my headaches….

Squeezed into the semi-final…..

Tired, very tired… need some sleep badly…

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I am no longer the guy i was…..

I’m sorry that i have changed…..

If you think you still understand and know what i’m thinking….. please think again…

I do hope i become better and not the worst…

Going out now again….

Have a great evening…