A very long dream…..

Just came back from class…

Organisation Behaviour is getting abit dry… but nevertheless i still enjoyed the lesson with my new classmates… haha

Lecturer said she like the pink top i wore today… soo weird.. The pink is kinda funky for her age man.. haha

Anyway…had formed up a group to do project… we are called the “Delta Force”… haha some kind of elite ah? haha.. oh well, i have to do well man…

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I had a nightmare last night…  Its not entirely scary or wat.. just that the people involved in the dream made me really worry…

It was indeed a very long dream, which eventually caused me to wake up late for my course in the morning…

I will cut it short, and without introducing the casts inside the dream, you should have guessed it.. Its her…

She was sad and alone in an empty room being locked up, she was somesort being beaten as i could see bruises all over her, she was crying and she was helpless…. I was a spirit inside the room, knew what was happening to her but i was helpless and i cannot do anything about it… I tried talking or whispering to her ears but she can’t hear what i said…. I tried to free her from the room but i cannot open the door… My heart ached and tears rolled down my cheek… I could see and feel her, but there was nothing i could do to help…. The dream lasted the whole night till i was woke up by my mom….

I wanted to call her up and to check whether she is fine but… i did not…

The question is…. Do i really care for her? If i do, why?

Is there a need to?

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Have to revise my OB liao.. need to wake up at 6:15am man..

Good night people..

4 months…

Yes, its already 4 months….

The feeling for her remains but its fading off and getting weaker as the days passed….

No doubt, there are times i really want to know how she is doing….

But in the end, i choose to resist the temptation and focus on something else…. somehow it works…

All i can say, time heals….

God above please bless and take good care of her….

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Facing my own problems alone really is not a simple thing at all….

My mood can really be affected by it…

I just want a simple life…. What can i do? Nothing but to wait…

Am really tired……….

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Its only the 1st week of my part time studies…

But somehow i think i have fallen in love with my studies again….

It has been a rough educational journey for me….

Did really bad for my PSLE and gotten myself into normal stream during sec 1… inspired by my maths teacher then and i worked extremely hard to get into express stream the next year.. subsequently i was top in class every year till i graduated with 6 ‘O’ level credits of 10 points.. Chosen Poly instead of JC and did fairly well only at the end of the 3 years diploma course… Went to army subsequently and i stopped my study journey till now… Its been a good old 5 years that i last touched a text book.. haha…. Its not really easy for me though to start studying again.. But no matter what.. I will DO WELL!!! Cos i really NEED TO!!! Cannot let SAF down man!

Spent the whole weekends getting my sleep back.. Whole of last week totally drained me up…

Furthermore, i did my revision on both of my modules! haha.. Yes.. turning myself into a studious boy again.. i mean man.. haha

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DARK KNIGHT was indeed a great movie… no wonder Hit the all time US box office opening record of 15 millions… 

Trust me, the 21/2 hours show really deserve your time and effort to watch it… 

Ok, time to do more revision on my Financial Accounting! haha… (Sleepy though)

Good night people! Have great Monday ahead!

Back to school..

Attended my 1st lesson in many years….

The feeling was great!

After years of being a working adult, it feels soo nice to be a student back at school again…

Met alot of new faces in class… Time to network man! =)

Amazingly i really enjoyed my class… The feeling is finally back….

I want to do well, and somehow i think i’m capable of achieving it! We shall see then…. haha

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Was at my pool training just now, important game tomorrow as it will decides our destiny of making through to the second round…

Com’on guys! We can do it! Cheers!

Will update the score on my blog tomorrow after the game….

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Am i trying too hard lately? I really do not know….

Again, am tired and do hope to get some quality sleep..

I had a nightmare last night…. Dreamt that i accidentally murdered someone…

In the dream, i was terrified, sad and worried…

Whole night i was unable to sleep well….. which caused my behaviour to be ruined…

Uable to rest well….

Good night perople..

A normal life….

A normal life it seems….

Am really troubled and i’m unable to share….

October… Am i able to get back my life again?

I have learnt alot for the past few years….

I do appreciate the life i have now… Simple it is…

If only…. if only the worries are gone… I sincerely pray it will be over soon…..

Alot of plans ahead for me….

School starts tomorrow and no doubt it will not be an easy journey for me…

There are soo many things i want to do…. Personal Upgrading is the key thing!

1) Drumming

2) Dance Class

3) Golfing

4) Learn how to cook! Yes! haha

I do hope by the age of 30 – 35 i’m able to get my own apartment!

Haha… to think about all the goals ahead of me.. am really excited..

No matter what, i must not be rushing for results… It takes time…

And i know, i be a better man somehow…

Rest early and sweet dreams people…. Pray for me…

Life changes at an instant….

Life is full of surprises…

No one can actually predict what will happen next…

One day you are healthy and fine but the next day you find yourself lying on the bed falling sick….

Things would not have turn out like this if one can look at the situation calmly and then make a decision….

We were once a happy couple… your family accepted me and we were happy as one…

But unknowingly things turned out badly….. We broke up, you moved on, you found new love, you quarrelled with your family, your beloved dad giving up on you and next you want to move out…

Happiness no longer can be found….

Why dun you step back abit and try not to follow your wishes and thinking for once….

Your family loves you… Your dad loves you…. Dun make him worry about you….

Stepping out alone is never a easy task…..

Think again.. Think properly…. You need to face up to reality…

I can no longer be there for you neither you want me to…

But as a friend who still somehow cares about you…. a word of advice.. “Impulsiveness kill”

I do not know what to say further.. am tired and troubled with my own problems…

Take care people….

2 sided world…

In need of support from her…..

But never expect she reacted that way…..

Sms that she replied was indeed hurting….

Its a 2 sided world, what she replied was totally not what i have expected 2 years back……

I’m not sure what you are thinking at that point of time…..

The sms sent acrossed was indeed shocking and yes, unexpected.

Another week of worries…..

Hardwork is Sweat But Success is Sweet…..

Not an ordinary sunday….

Have to wake up very early…..

It started from 8am all the way till 9pm…

Yes… 13 hours.. haha… And i spent practically 10 hours standing and running about… haha

Though it took alot of effort to prepare for this event… but all i can say the end result was great!

No pain no gain… but again… Think about the gain and not the pain man!

It was indeed a eventful moment of my SAF career….

Took a few pictures with my colleauges….

Chris & Yejie – Secretariat PGR 2008 

Theres something in my eye……. haha

The Happy Working Parties for the PGR!

Ok.. before i end this entry..

This what inspired me to achieve great results during my school days, a quote from my favorite maths teacher – Mr Michael Koh

“Hardwork is Sweat but Success is Sweet”

Good nite people!

Key to success!

Was at the service today….

The message sent across was really meaningful….

We are the princes and princesses of GOD.. keep this in mind….

We have to be ”ZAI” in every way… Show no worries and be confident….

The following are the keys to be “ZAI” in life…

1) Self Image

2) Self Worth

3) Self Esteem

4) Self Respect

Anyway… its 4:05am I have to sleep le…. Have to wake up early to work… PGR

Before i leave…. I want to share this…

“There isn’t a need to humuliate/ degrade others just to show that you are better”

Good Nite people…

I’m a part of you indefinitely…..

Always be my baby

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seemed everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I’m letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No!

You’ll always be a part of me
I’m a part of you indefinitely
Girl don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby

I ain’t gonna cry no
And I won’t beg you to stay
If you’re determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you’ll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

You’ll always be a part of me
I’m part of you indefinitely
Girl don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby

I know that you’ll be back girl
When your days and your nights get a little bit colder oooohhh
I know that, you’ll be right back, babe
Ooooh! baby believe me it’s only a matter of time

You’ll always be apart of me
I’m part of you indefinitely
Girl don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my my baby….

You’ll always be apart of me (you will always be)
I’m part of you indefinitely
Girl don’t you know you can’t escape me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby
And we’ll linger on (we will linger on….)
Time can’t erase a feeling this strong
No way you’re never gonna shake me
Ooh darling cause you’ll always be my baby

Always be my baby

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David Cook, a really gifted singer….

Really deserved to win the American Idol….

His performance touched me… Enjoy!

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A long and hectic weekend ahead……

Sunday is the finale…

Its time to see the long co-ordinated hardwork pays off…….

President Garden Reception 2008 @ the Istana….

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Lately alot of things came across my mind…

Serving people… its amazing…

Its the only way i can get comfort and peace…..

I wish i can do more… and i do hope that i will become a better man……

There are still problems that i have to face…

I do hope God can guide me through… I’m not sure i on the right track now…

And honestly… i’m still seeking.. for an answer…

I want to be normal like everyone else… but my past has been huanting me….

I have to wait patiently….. And do hope the people out there to give me time….

Mistakes i made are hard to erase…. I’m trying and I’m trying very hard…

I believe she left me is a correct decision made… I cannot provide what i promised to give right now..

It was me… I created the problems, now i have to solve them myself…..

I have to be strong from the outside…

People around me now… Nice, Happy, Kind Hearted…

I wished i have met all of you earlier….

I’m a failure.. I caused pain… to the one i love dearly.. her, my family, my friends…..

Have a nice weekend people…..

Serving….

3:18am, just managed to finish up my friend’s video…..

Am tired again… physically…

Lately been involved in alot of activities…

And guess wat? I am going to flood myself with endless learnings….

DRUM, DANCE, IT & BUSINESS…. haha cannot see the link… but watever the case…. I must try to end my the other half of 2008 with atleast something good..

Lately, i found out something… The meaning of Happiness….

Sometimes its not all about myself when comes to happiness….

As what Buddy V has said… We are here to serve people…

And by serving, we will find meanings in life…

And yes it is true….

Able to fulfill one’s happiness is truely ‘the happiest’ thing in my life….

As one grows older, one will work hard, one will also neglect certain aspect of life…

My recommendation… always listen attentively, be it small or big…. take some time to sit back and recall of what was heard…. Trust me.. there are bound to be ‘callings’ and if these ‘callings’ are within your means….answer them! The returns are incredible…

Life is not just about me and myself…. There are more to it..

Just days back.. I drove home with a smile on my face.. though i’m tired… but i’m happy… =) 

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Church mate, xiao mei is flying off to study this thurs and sincerely wishes all the best and ever!

You can do it! Ganbatte!

Haha… Nice chill up session before our xiao mei flies off.. anyway she will leave behind Miss X, who is really a fun loving person… haha..

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Tried to call her.. as expected.. she did not picked up…

Buddy V said i have put in alot in the relationship and i have recieved disappointments that nobody can understand nor describe….

I have to open up my mind… To think back that i have given her almost 2 years of happiness…. I tried my best… though the end result is not what i have wanted.. but atleast i have almost 2 years of wonderful memories with her… These will always be kept within my heart…. for life…

Saw our pictures in my old lappy….. we were really once a happy couple then… eyes turned red as i clicked through the photos… 

This week is going to be soo hectic and sunday is the President Garden Reception, which i’m soo totally involved and busy with…

Ok guess i have to rest le… its 4:15am… haha

Buddy, i know what i’m doing.. and i will not disappoint you again.. have faith in me..

Gd nite people!