Screw things up again..

Should have kept my mouth shut!

Should have stayed cool man….

Nvm la… what is meant to be will be….

Damn hungry now… need to find food… haha

Guess i have to seek for another few more hopes….haha

Good night people….

Its a run away train…..

It’s really hard for me to feel for someone again…..

Lately, things have changed….

But the only problem is…. I think i’m not good enough interms of maturity, stability and etc….

Guess the facts and numerous hints given to me clearly states the ‘Red’ light for me to stop and think again….

What i’m doing now is it a ‘WANT’ or a ‘NEED’?

I do not have the answer yet… maybe? 

I wish i can be better in every aspect…

Good night.

Financial Planning giving me a headache…

Do you know how important is financial planning?

Don’t worry, i’m not going to blog about the topic at all… instead, theres something else… =)

2 different person but similar job, A Financial Planner and A Personal Banker…

Financial Planner is a good friend of mine, we played for the same pool team…

To be honest, he is really sincere… and i believe i will recommend my friends to him for insurance and financial adivices… Trust me, you won’t regret…

Personal Banker is a new friend of mine, (somehow, i always got myself hook up with ladies from the banking industry, haha).. again she is a really nice lady and a workaholic….

Independent, smart and ambitious… And yes, she kinda “my Type” of girl… haha

We went out less than two times (just based on last week), and theres alot more to know about her…

Somehow, i felt kinda intimidated going out with her as we are simply from two different world….

But, lets see how it goes and am not hoping for anything..

Guess its just another stage of my life in this hectic year 2008….

Time will reveal….

God Bless all.

Its hard to cope…

What can i do when everything is pouring down on you?

Nothing…

I need a break from everything….

I need to do well in my studies, but apparently i not spending enough time to do what i supposed to do…

Its funny when you chose to do the ‘things you want’ rather than ‘doing the right thing’….

Human beings are selfish in nature….

I need to do a soul search….

Destination unknown….

Loving someone is good for the soul….

But there isn’t anyone……

I’m going to a unknown place to regain my life and hopeful to find back my ’true’ identity….

******************************************************************************************************************

On a lighter note…

I discovered a thoery on great athletes…

All these legends share a common thing, observe it yourself:

- Michael Jordan – Basketball

- Michael Schumacher – F1Ferrari

- Michael Johnson – US Sprinter

- Michael Ballack – German Soccer Captain

- Michael Phelps – US Swimmer

I believe by now you all should have guess it, Yes, all these lengend are the ‘Michaels’.

So if Singapore needs a Olympic Gold Medal or achieve great heights in world sports event.. They better recruit the ‘Michaels’… haha

Imagine this:

If only our table tennis sensation Li Jia Wei is called Michael Li Jia Wei, we could have won the goal medal!

Ok joke aside.. anyway.. Well done Team Singapore! You done us proud!

Have a great day people…

Life and How to Survive it?

Managed to read an interesting Convo Speech By Adrian Tan… Read it, trust me its worth it!

******************************************************************************************************************

“This is Adrian Tan’s convocation speech to NTU’s (singapore) graduating class of 2008. He wrote The Teenage Textbook and is a litigator for Drew & Napier in Singapore.

Life and How to Survive It

I must say thank you to the faculty and staff of the Wee Kim Wee School of Communication and Information for inviting me to give your convocation address. It’s a wonderful honour and a privilege for me to speak here for ten minutes without fear of contradiction, defamation or retaliation. I say this as a Singaporean and more so as a husband.My wife is a wonderful person and perfect in every way except one. She is the editor of a magazine. She corrects people for a living. She has honed her expert skills over a quarter of a century, mostly by practising at home during conversations between her and me.On the other hand, I am a litigator. Essentially, I spend my day telling people how wrong they are. I make my living being disagreeable.

Nevertheless, there is perfect harmony in our matrimonial home. That is because when an editor and a litigator have an argument, the one who triumphs is always the wife.

And so I want to start by giving one piece of advice to the men: when you’ve already won her heart, you don’t need to win every argument.

Marriage is considered one milestone of life. Some of you may already be married. Some of you may never be married. Some of you will be married. Some of you will enjoy the experience so much, you will be married many, many times. Good for you.

The next big milestone in your life is today: your graduation. The end of education. You’re done learning.

You’ve probably been told the big lie that “Learning is a lifelong process” and that therefore you will continue studying and taking masters’ degrees and doctorates and professorships and so on. You know the sort of people who tell you that? Teachers. Don’t you think there is some measure of conflict of interest? They are in the business of learning, after all. Where would they be without you? They need you to be repeat customers.

The good news is that they’re wrong.

The bad news is that you don’t need further education because your entire life is over. It is gone. That may come as a shock to some of you. You’re in your teens or early twenties. People may tell you that you will live to be 70, 80, 90 years old. That is your life expectancy.

I love that term: life expectancy. We all understand the term to mean the average life span of a group of people. But I’m here to talk about a bigger idea, which is what you expect from your life.

You may be very happy to know that Singapore is currently ranked as the country with the third highest life expectancy. We are behind Andorra and Japan, and tied with San Marino. It seems quite clear why people in those countries, and ours, live so long. We share one thing in common: our football teams are all hopeless. There’s very little danger of any of our citizens having their pulses raised by watching us play in the World Cup. Spectators are more likely to be lulled into a gentle and restful nap.

Singaporeans have a life expectancy of 81.8 years. Singapore men live to an average of 79.21 years, while Singapore women live more than five years longer, probably to take into account the additional time they need to spend in the bathroom.

So here you are, in your twenties, thinking that you’ll have another 40 years to go. Four decades in which to live long and prosper.

Bad news. Read the papers. There are people dropping dead when they’re 50, 40, 30 years old. Or quite possibly just after finishing their convocation. They would be very disappointed that they didn’t meet their life expectancy.

I’m here to tell you this. Forget about your life expectancy.

After all, it’s calculated based on an average. And you never, ever want to expect being average.

Revisit those expectations. You might be looking forward to working, falling in love, marrying, raising a family. You are told that, as graduates, you should expect to find a job paying so much, where your hours are so much, where your responsibilities are so much.

That is what is expected of you. And if you live up to it, it will be an awful waste.

If you expect that, you will be limiting yourself. You will be living your life according to boundaries set by average people. I have nothing against average people. But no one should aspire to be them. And you don’t need years of education by the best minds in Singapore to prepare you to be average.

What you should prepare for is mess. Life’s a mess. You are not entitled to expect anything from it. Life is not fair. Everything does not balance out in the end. Life happens, and you have no control over it. Good and bad things happen to you day by day, hour by hour, moment by moment. Your degree is a poor armour against fate.

Don’t expect anything. Erase all life expectancies. Just live. Your life is over as of today. At this point in time, you have grown as tall as you will ever be, you are physically the fittest you will ever be in your entire life and you are probably looking the best that you will ever look. This is as good as it gets. It is all downhill from here. Or up. No one knows.

What does this mean for you? It is good that your life is over.

Since your life is over, you are free. Let me tell you the many wonderful things that you can do when you are free.

The most important is this: do not work.

Work is anything that you are compelled to do. By its very nature, it is undesirable.

Work kills. The Japanese have a term “Karoshi”, which means death from overwork. That’s the most dramatic form of how work can kill. But it can also kill you in more subtle ways. If you work, then day by day, bit by bit, your soul is chipped away, disintegrating until there’s nothing left. A rock has been ground into sand and dust.

There’s a common misconception that work is necessary. You will meet people working at miserable jobs. They tell you they are “making a living”. No, they’re not. They’re dying, frittering away their fast-extinguishing lives doing things which are, at best, meaningless and, at worst, harmful.

People will tell you that work ennobles you, that work lends you a certain dignity. Work makes you free. The slogan “Arbeit macht frei” was placed at the entrances to a number of Nazi concentration camps. Utter nonsense.

Do not waste the vast majority of your life doing something you hate so that you can spend the small remainder sliver of your life in modest comfort. You may never reach that end anyway.

Resist the temptation to get a job. Instead, play. Find something you enjoy doing. Do it. Over and over again. You will become good at it for two reasons: you like it, and you do it often. Soon, that will have value in itself.

I like arguing, and I love language. So, I became a litigator. I enjoy it and I would do it for free. If I didn’t do that, I would’ve been in some other type of work that still involved writing fiction – probably a sports journalist.

So what should you do? You will find your own niche. I don’t imagine you will need to look very hard. By this time in your life, you will have a very good idea of what you will want to do. In fact, I’ll go further and say the ideal situation would be that you will not be able to stop yourself pursuing your passions. By this time you should know what your obsessions are. If you enjoy showing off your knowledge and feeling superior, you might become a teacher.

Find that pursuit that will energise you, consume you, become an obsession. Each day, you must rise with a restless enthusiasm. If you don’t, you are working.

Most of you will end up in activities which involve communication. To those of you I have a second message: be wary of the truth. I’m not asking you to speak it, or write it, for there are times when it is dangerous or impossible to do those things. The truth has a great capacity to offend and injure, and you will find that the closer you are to someone, the more care you must take to disguise or even conceal the truth. Often, there is great virtue in being evasive, or equivocating. There is also great skill. Any child can blurt out the truth, without thought to the consequences. It takes great maturity to appreciate the value of silence.

In order to be wary of the truth, you must first know it. That requires great frankness to yourself. Never fool the person in the mirror.

I have told you that your life is over, that you should not work, and that you should avoid telling the truth. I now say this to you: be hated.

It’s not as easy as it sounds. Do you know anyone who hates you? Yet every great figure who has contributed to the human race has been hated, not just by one person, but often by a great many. That hatred is so strong it has caused those great figures to be shunned, abused, murdered and in one famous instance, nailed to a cross.

One does not have to be evil to be hated. In fact, it’s often the case that one is hated precisely because one is trying to do right by one’s own convictions. It is far too easy to be liked, one merely has to be accommodating and hold no strong convictions. Then one will gravitate towards the centre and settle into the average. That cannot be your role. There are a great many bad people in the world, and if you are not offending them, you must be bad yourself. Popularity is a sure sign that you are doing something wrong.

The other side of the coin is this: fall in love.

I didn’t say “be loved”. That requires too much compromise. If one changes one’s looks, personality and values, one can be loved by anyone.

Rather, I exhort you to love another human being. It may seem odd for me to tell you this. You may expect it to happen naturally, without deliberation. That is false. Modern society is anti-love. We’ve taken a microscope to everyone to bring out their flaws and shortcomings. It far easier to find a reason not to love someone, than otherwise. Rejection requires only one reason. Love requires complete acceptance. It is hard work – the only kind of work that I find palatable.

Loving someone has great benefits. There is admiration, learning, attraction and something which, for the want of a better word, we call happiness. In loving someone, we become inspired to better ourselves in every way. We learn the truth worthlessness of material things. We celebrate being human. Loving is good for the soul.

Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn’t happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm.

You will find, that when you have someone to love, that the face is less important than the brain, and the body is less important than the heart.

You will also find that it is no great tragedy if your love is not reciprocated. You are not doing it to be loved back. Its value is to inspire you.

Finally, you will find that there is no half-measure when it comes to loving someone. You either don’t, or you do with every cell in your body, completely and utterly, without reservation or apology. It consumes you, and you are reborn, all the better for it.

Don’t work. Avoid telling the truth. Be hated. Love someone.

You’re going to have a busy life. Thank goodness there’s no life expectancy.

 

*****************************************************************************************************************

I believe many of us will agree with the speech.. For myself, the below quotes touches me….

“when you’ve already won her heart, you don’t need to win every argument.”

“Loving someone is therefore very important, and it is also important to choose the right person. Despite popular culture, love doesn’t happen by chance, at first sight, across a crowded dance floor. It grows slowly, sinking roots first before branching and blossoming. It is not a silly weed, but a mighty tree that weathers every storm”

Have a great day ahead! Back to work…..

What i see in myself?

I been really busy lately…

Work pilling up as usual, school projects’ datelines are nearing…..

Need to help my friend with his project… been dragging it for ages…

I am troubled and i do not know what to do….

I’m currently in my office blogging this entry.. Yes, in my office on National Day..

What i see in myself?

I’m depressed… I need fresh air for myself…

I’m trying really hard to do the best i can to live on… or even move on…

I need love… but i can’t have any at the moment…

I want to do well in every aspect.. but there are bound to be obstacles… lots of them..

I’m too nice at times… why? I believe its due to the fact i’m just a dumb arse….

I just want to make myself happy… I’m selfish…

I’m not that good afterall… though i trying to salvage everything…

No matter how hard i try… It always look as though there isn’t a way back….

Who am i? What i really need? I do not know…

I need a chance.. and i know one day, i’ll make a different!

but… would i be able sustain till that day?

Clueless in everything..

Hope?

Its just me… Useless

Happy National Day! Good Night.

SOAP reunited…

I realised something…

Time is always insufficient…..

Work, Study, Friends, Me and Myself….. Running in a clockwise direction….

I need something more… When will it comes?

There are a number of shows i really want to catch over the weekends if possible…

Mummy 3, Money not Enough 2, Love Guru…

The SOAP is finally in the house! haha.. Yes the good old Echo Boys days….

Meeting up with my fellow brothers this evening for dinner….

Its been awhile that we last met up together… Really need to catch up man..

Wednesday night… Hmmm whats after dinner??? I really ‘wonder’ haha

Alright back to my work, and guess what? I’m been appointed as the convenor for my formation basketball team! (Its been sooo long that i last touched the ball man!)

I need love man…. lotsa of it!

Have a great day ahead people!

I need to know… what’s next?

Its been almost a week that i last blogged….

Many events happened during this short period of time….

Alot of decisions were made….

Be it happy or sad…

Move on is all i have to say….

Thursday, pool competition was a very close fight… but in the end we lost… Certain incidents made me really uncomfortable then….. will be continued*

Friday, class on Financial Accounting was good, afterall its all about practise and understanding of the logic behind the formulas… 2 Quizes this week, OB and Acc and both assignments fall on the same due date: 25th Aug 08…

Saturday, attended the FOP at the indoor stadium…. a massive crowd indeed, overall the message sent across by the pastor from Australia, Mark Conner, was really inspiring.. A funny guy too.. The message was about controlling your own destiny and making the right decision within your own ‘circle’…. No one controls you except yourself… We need to do some self-reflection and make sure we are able to dignose our own problems and make ourself a better and more responsible person…. Take up the responsibility to GROW UP!

Saturday, met up with buddy JK who just came back from taiwan and we chilled at St James… Could not really remembered when was the last time i was there…. nevertheless it was relaxing and fun… drinking with my buddy JK… Too bad Buddy V unable to join us due to some family prob back home… I do hope the best for him…..

Sunday, woke up @ 10am and went to compete in some sunday pool tournament… was kinda last minute as my Captain only informed me about this event the night before (in the early morning)…. All i can say at the end of the tournament, i decided to leave the team… Yes, a decision was made, i left the team.. Its was due to certain factors that leaded me to my decision… Will not elaborate more on it… I do wished them well in their final game this coming thursday… Good Luck!

Another decision was made too, will not comment further on it for now…. Not sure whether its going to work out for me in the end… again time will tell.. *hint* Japanese Translator.. =)

Instead of 2 months, i found out today its only a month away…. Really thankful..

Have a great day people.. need to rush to meeting…