Down and Drowning…

Its monday and i’m currently on MC due to bad cough and flu….

Its been 3 days that i last stepped out of my house…

Friday evening was really interesting…. Met up with someone…

Expect the unexpected…. Overall it was a pleasent meet up….. =)

Am troubled again… (what’s new?)

Due to ’this’ that made me stayed at home the past 2 days….

Stupidity factor and being Insane…. Why must i fallen into such a situation again? (Its nothing to do with r/s)…

I need a miracle… A sign maybe…. (just like how alonso won the grand pix yesterday)

Lost focus in work and have to make myself study for my quiz….

Only managed to obtain 80% after hours of self studying…(am not happy about it)

I’m down and i’m drowning…. save me.. (if i deserve to be saved)

I stepping out to meet JK.. he is leaving in a few days time….

V and JK been alway there for me.. am glad to have buddies like them… (the echo brothers)

*I really wonder how is she?* But i dare not read her blog… (Becos the truth hurts)

Have a great week ahead peopl…

Love & Misses..

Its 3 am in the morning and i’m blogging the third time today…

I just finished the show “The Leap Years”..

I’m a sucker for Love shows and this local production seems pretty good…

Some take away quotes from the show, which i was touched by….

Indeed they are really meaningful….. trust me….

1) “In Three words, i can sum up everything I’ve learnt about life: It goes on…”

2) “A person often meets his destiny on the road he take to avoid it…”

3) “The common word in love letters is not LOVE but MISS”

Sometimes, life is suppose to be simple, it is hard when one seek for love for the sake of doing it….

Just let it flow…. Everything happens for a reason…

Don’t rush for anything… Have faith and believe in fate…

Good night people…

The Dream… A wake-up call for me..

My neck really hurts after a whole night of ’Drama’…..

The story went that i met a girl working in a design firm dealing with IT stuff….

I can hardly remember her face and all i know she is really sweet and bubbly… Lets call her ‘X’

Soon, we got together and strange things started to happen…

We were happy spending quality time together, ’X’ was very understanding and we shared common interest….

I was really thankful that she appeared in my life…. I was really happy…

But soon, things started to fall apart…

The present of ‘X’ started to fade away…..

I was rushing down to a train station to meet ‘X’ in a heavy downpour… It seems like no matter how hard i tried to move myself… i can never reach her destination…

Something was stopping me….

She was left waiting and waiting… expecting atleast a call from me….

Fear of losing ‘X’ shown as tears started to fall from my eyes… I was desparate…

In the end… ‘X’ was gone….

I refused to accept the fact she was gone.. and the next moment i woke up….. (It was indeed a dream)

I was sad….

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Lately i been sleeping late…. the 2 whole weeks of exercise really drained me out…

The exercise cuts on last friday and finally i have sometime of my own..

Managed to get a haircut, met up with some friends, had some drinks and party…..

Was @ Zouk on Saturday..

 

Its nice spending some time with friends in club…. but i must say.. I’m old already…

Late nights are not for me anymore… I need to stay healthy and have a more proper routine.. (Sleep early wake up early, haha)

I need to do something else… I need to be focus.. I need to know how to be alone and work towards my goal…

I should spend more quality time with my family… Am really excited about my sister’s baby news…

Com’on Chris… I control my destiny… Be a better person, son, lover and husband….

Ok back to work.. really stressful though…

Latest news, i might be going oversea for some course next year.. Germany.. Classified stuff.

Good day people!

The 5 Love Languages

The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Words of Affirmation.

Complete set of results

Quality Time:		10
Words of Affirmation:		7
Acts of Service:		6
Physical Touch:		6
Receiving Gifts:		1

Information

Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don’t understand our partner’s requirements, or even our own. We all have a “love tank” that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

Take the quiz

Exercise Week… Tiring..

This week is rather tiring soo far…..

Shift starts @ 6am and ends at 8pm…

Am really tired and i need some serious rest man….

Its a perfect alcohol-free week for me…

After shift just straight home to rest…. or it is not? haha…

Met up with *someone on monday to have supper…

Over the conversation, we were able to chat anything under the sun… haha

But again, i get to realise that “Money can buy Love”… haha.

Its a practical world man… You have the money, you get the babes…

I’m not loaded… soo i guess i just have to stick to my ’sincere’ approach….

My approach takes effort and one has to be patient…. =)

Chat alot of craps on msn last night…

Managed to “indirectly” insulted the banker… haha..

Get to know more about the car dealer also…. prolly dinner later as well.. hee…

Gotten Ling’s number after ‘one decade’…. haha

And… managed to make some dinner appointment with the SIA girl, its her birthday week!…. (date yet to confirm)

Msn is really a place to network….. an ‘open space’ to socialise with friends and bitch about… haha

Life goes on my friends…

Back to my work… Have a great day ahead people!

Cheers

Defining the Opposite Sex Group…

For the past few months i met alot of new female friends…. Somehow they are different in every aspect, giving me a wider perspective towards the opposite sex…

The Banker (age: 27)
Pros: Ambitious and Smart. Career minded. Able to cook and very sweet at times (if things favour her way).
Cons: Pampered and Spoiled. Always believes that she is right. A very insensitive blunt person.

The Air Crew (age:22)
Pros: Independent and very sociable. Friendly in nature and full of love and care.
Cons: Currently attached. (Haha)

The Japanese Translator (Age: 28)
Pros: Independent and very sociable. Friendly in nature. Smart and capable. Speaks very fluent Japanese.
Cons: Lives in Malaysia (Too far), Addicted to ‘fightclub’ in Facebook. Will ‘MIA’ once in awhile. haha

The Hairdresser (Age: 20)
Pros: Sweet young thing.
Cons: No goals in life yet. Likes to lie and is a fake. (Basically still young and naive)

The Part-time Fashion Consultant/ Student (Age: 24)
Pros: Very gentle and nice person. Trueful and sincere when comes to a relationship.
Cons: Naive and currently a workaholic (due to recent broke-ups). Not very ambitious and working blindly. Likes to make use of friends.

The Part-time Model/ Student (Age: 20)
Pros: Nice person and very sociable. Likes to play soccer.
Cons: High maintenance and preferred living in high lives. Loves sport cars. (Not my type at all). Just broke up from a relationship.

The Car Dealer (Age: 22)
Pros: Very outgoing, sweet and nice. Independent and a very caring person. Simple life is good enough for her.
Cons: Just broke up from a relationship. Don’t really know her well.

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Last night, Verdy told me something which i felt was rather sad… But again.. Life still goes on.

I’m not hunting for anyone at the moment neither am i desparately in need of a partner…. but one thing for sure… I missed those days that i’m able to commit to someone who i dearly love….

Need to focus on something else… I really need to…

Am tired.. Good Night People.

A very bad mistake…

Humans are not perfect….

They tends to make mistakes…

I made a really bad one…

Am sorry….

I am not what i was the other night…

But i have only myself to blame…

What is wrong with me?

What is wrong with year 2008?

I’m sick… God Bless..

1 week break….

1 week break from school….. but work still remains….

Once again, the short thrill of dating a banker is over…..

7 days a week, 7 days of Alcohol…. OMG….haha

Started off with ICE COLD BEER on monday, Tues cannot remember, St James on Wed, MOS on Thurs, St James on Fri and last night ZOUK!

But all i can say, it was madness….. Will get back ‘CLEAN’ and ‘ALCOHOL FREE’ next week onwards.. haha

Last night drinks record as follows:

1) 2 x Flaming Lambo
2) 1 x Jug of Chivas Green Tea
3) 1 x Jug and 2 x Glass of Whisky Dry
4) 2 x Glass of Baileys
5) 1 x Jug Vodka Orange

End result: Serious Hangover

Everyone was happy and had fun!

I really enjoyed the accompany of my new friends from SIA….

Exotic group of people as they are not from Singapore…

Hope to post some pictures soon..  

I’m blogging in my camp now….. and yes, I’m doing my duty! haha

Have a great sunday people!

Playing With Fire…

I knew its not going to work out for us….

We are completely different!

But i just like the thrill to play with fire…

Got burnt badly in the end… haha

She is indeed very good in manipulating and pushing all blames to me…

Sometimes, I really feel I’m a total loser….

Saturday was supposed to be a nice and enjoyable afternoon lunch and evening KTV session with her and Grace (her sister).

I am perfectly fine with the invitation of her friend (ex bf) to join in the singing session…

Being gentleman enough, i tried to be nice and picked up topics to chat with him…

But he was too moody (just broke up with his gf) to entertain…

WTF…. Com’ on, the whole world doesn’t just rotate around your F***king life!

Theres more…. during the whole KTV session she was basically trying soo hard to cheer him up!

All the hugs and such… WTH….

Though i’m not her bf but please…. She should know how i would feel right? What was she trying to prove?

But being gracious, i kept my cool and continued with my singing, believing that she was liberal and just being nice to her friend…

Towards the end of the session, she came over to me and whispered to me this….

“Would you be nice enough to send my sister home? I have to spend some time with him as you can see he is not in the right state of mind….”

At that point of time, i had two choices:

A) Continue to be gracious and accept her request

B) Get annoyed as i felt i was being played out

In the end i made both choices,

Graciously, i offered to send her sister home but my attitude changed completely…

Ok, i believe you guys must be thinking that i’m seriously petty, but hey, try to put yourself in my shoe, i felt like a completely idiot…

She kinda noticed my changed in attitude and asked me to go out for a talk…

Yes, i poured out all my unhappiness and we quarreled… haha.. seriously it was really unneccessary…

In the end, i did sent her sister home and we went off separate ways….

Honestly speaking, our characters doesn’t fit….

I tried and…

I got burnt in the end….

On sunday night, we managed to talk on the phone…

Her words were blunt and with no mercy at all…

Most of the time, she was practically shouting over the phone…

In the end, we came to a conclusion….

We are not suitable for eachother…. 

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On saturday night, JK’s gf Carine was having a event at Butter Factory…

I went down with JK and had a couple of drinks…

Carine saw my depressed look and realised i was having some problems with Pearl..

Next she asked me this..

“I thought you love Clairia alot?”

In my mind, my answer to her is “Yes I do, but it’s the only way to stop me from thinking of her and move on”

What else you want me to do?

I trying to move on… like what she did….

But its not easy at all… I need love…

Fallen sick yesterday… slept the whole day..